IN KEEPING MY WISH, NOTHING SHOULD COME IN THE WAY

Cyrus Daily Messages

Bhau would also go to Poona every Sunday to receive instructions concerning the mandali recovering in Satara, and report to Baba about their condition. He would return to Satara the same evening. This was a period of terrible mental strain for Bhau. Baba would tell him to rest, but he could not obey because someone had to look after Eruch and Pendu, who were still in the hospital. On occasion, upon arriving from Poona at the Satara bus station, Bhau was informed that the man who had been hired to be near Pendu at night had not shown up. This required his going straight to the hospital and staying awake throughout the night. Although he had Baba’s order to rest, he could not carry it out.

One Sunday in Poona, Baba reprimanded him again. “Don’t you value my words?” he asked Bhau. “You regularly break my order. You are not well and may die. Your death will not pain me, but your disobedience to my orders will! I am suffering already, and your disobedience is increasing my suffering.”

To add to Bhau’s torment, Baba went so far as to cuttingly remark, “This accident happened because of you … ” [If this is to be taken literally, Baba never did explain.]

It was becoming too much to bear for Bhau: “What am I to do? Circumstances are such that I am forced to disobey.”

“Do you want to follow my instructions according to circumstances? If your obedience depends on circumstances, you will never be able to obey me.”

“But then, what arrangements should be made for Eruch and Pendu?” Bhau pleaded.

“Do you value my words, or Eruch and Pendu? Even if they die, so what? In keeping my wish, nothing should come in the way.”

Eventually, in January 1957, Sidhu was called from Meherabad to remain near Pendu at night. Both of Pendu’s legs were in plaster casts, and for several days he was unconscious. He had also received a head injury and was in terrible pain. Eruch was courageously bearing his suffering, and day and night would remain reclined on a backrest, as he could not lie down because of his broken ribs. Yet, within a month, he was out of the hospital and with Baba in Poona.

Of those who survived the accident, Baba had received the most serious injuries, and his suffering would have been unbearable for any other man. But it seemed that Baba enjoyed it, and although completely disabled and in pain, he was mindful of the smallest matter.

For ten days, he had trouble passing urine. He also did not pass any stool for several days, and Dr. Bansod had to manually remove his feces. Every doctor who treated Baba felt pleased to attend to his needs, and despite the pain, Baba would act with them as if he were not suffering at all. The doctors would, in turn, lay their personal problems before him as if they were the patients.

But with the men and women mandali, Baba’s daily attitude was quite the reverse. To them, he complained constantly of pain and was restless despite all their attentions, thereby giving them the chance to serve him. He could not bear the slightest carelessness on the part of any of the men or women mandali and gave them innumerable lessons in the highest form of service.

Lord Meher, American ed., Bhau Kalchuri, Vol. 15, pp. 5136 – 5137.